i have left exhaustion behind and all that lingers now is this dirty haired, caffeine injected cigarrette smoking shell
i just want to be still
to sleep
and be in the quiet, just close my eyes and let the quiet in
hard now
to NOT want to just sleep for days and write and smoke
and sleep
it is hard now
to think
beyond my next fix waiting for me in the corners to come out and play
it is hard now
to move
to eat
to love
to feel
it all slips away
leaving the swollen eyed girl that can't cry
this is the hard part to move and be beyond just a few fragmented words that mean
nothing
beyond the shell of my own head
to leave this place and do more than just sit with you and type and drink and forget to eat
and forget to love my husband
and loose my children
to not want it
to not let it completely swallow me
to not stroke the keys and loose it all here
give of it freely ..... to you
the price to pay is to high
the need
to high
the longing to much
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Three very good pieces - a productive morning here at the Porcelain Place. Thanks, guys.
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